Saturday, August 18, 2007
Cancer has made me a more obsessive and reclusive person
I love Mirian Engelberg's breast cancer comic book. One of my favorite parts is how she began doing TV Guide crossword puzzles obsessively during treatment. There is one frame with her and the TV Guide and the thought balloon "Must avoid all conscious thought". That's how I still feel.
I should be back in my real life by now. The bird cage must be cleaned, the frog needs a mouse to eat, the garden needs work, the new quilt should be pinned and basted, the bathrooms need to be cleaned, I have guests arriving Monday night and no food in the house. So I'm doing this stupid jigsaw puzzle. Its all I want to do.
If I'd been reading Betty Rollin's new book, "Here's the Bright Side" instead of "Cancer Made Me A Shallower Person" I'd be worried about this behavior.